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my dearest

i never wanted to bring you discomfort or despair. i'm awfully sorry if i couldn't make myself understood as i hoped i would.it's not that i don't understand you at all. i see your point and i try to figure out what it means to me, but you see, its not as easy as i thought it would be. i've never been in a situation like that before. i mean, i've never loved like that before... and, well about being "extreme"... its not that you are extreme... well how should i say... hmm. i couldn't explain what i felt, when i last contributed to our blog, so i put this word in quotation marks ... and the thing is i still don't know how to say it in a better way... please give me some time.it's not that we don't have enough of it, right? you were right when you said that you have a different way of dealing with pain (and how could i pressume to say that you are wrong when it concerns your feelings). and that's exactly what i wanted to say in my last entry. that we are different and you handle things differently, compared to my way. you see, i never wanted to give you pain.
every time i told you that i love you, i really meant and felt it. it' such an amazing feeling and i thank you so much for letting me feel it. no, for making me feel it!

as i said before, please give me time to get accustomed to this situation of loving you and not being able to be with you all the time. you see it's all new to me...

at the moment i'm all sixes and sevens, due to my sickness (dear, it's my tonsils again!) and your being so far and you having left only three days ago, with all my tautness slowly going away. as i told you before, it was quite exertive for me to have you here (which does not mean that i didn't enjoy it, it was great and wonderful having you here!) because i wanted to make everything perfect for you, which is never completely possible. but still i tried. and it was your first time here in sa. at. so i wanted to give you the best impression.. at any rate, thanks for your compliment. yes, it may sound strange to a.. well a stranger, but i took it as a compliment and can only say "likewise" in return. you make me more human in ways of thinking in more generous terms and seeing things in a wider sense... to put it bluntly, you give my mind scope!

was it jerry maquire who said: "you complete me" ?
well, it's not that you complete me, but you make a bit more me out of me! does that make sense for you?
thank you too!

punktal